You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you. --- Frederick Buechner
I just read this quote a few minutes ago, and cannot stop reading it. Of course, the first thing I thought about was the fact that I've been ignoring my family and best friends...or so they might feel.
This is my S.A.D. time. It sneaks up on me every year and I wonder what the heck is wrong with me, and then I remember. Oh, that's right. It's November... December... January... February... March... then the days start to get noticeably longer and the sun shines warmer and I get back to being me, and back to being the me that others want and miss. I'm not doing this to hurt anyone. I just don't know how not to do what I'm doing right now. You know who you are. Chances are, if you're reading this, you feel like I've been ignoring you. You have every right to be upset with me. I'm sorry if I've hurt your feelings.
I'm going to take a Mixed Media Collage class in the evenings this year, which hopefully will give me a bit of a new outlook on life and inspire me...maybe even motivate me! I am really looking forward to this opportunity at the Art Museum. Tomorrow at the museum is Flora in Winter, which is also a breath of Spring in the midst of the grayness we're surrounded by. I'm going (with a friend!) and am pretty excited. Just the scent of those lovely flowers, designed to match a special piece of art. Scrumptuous.
I'm here. I'm fine...physically. I'm still fat and sassy, just not willing to express that side of me right now. My family is all good. The three of us are also beginning to plan our trip to Ireland this summer. Time is getting nearer, and we are making definite plans! Yes, this is exciting! I have a lot to look forward to, though you wouldn't know it from being with me.
That's all for now. Please go back to the top and read that quote again. Know that I care about you. I miss you, too, but can't bring myself to do anything about it.That's just who I am, and I'm sorry.
See you soon. XOXOXOXO